My whole life I had this feeling of not fitting in
Oh don't get me wrong I was comfortable in my own skin
Both on the outside and within
Do you know what I mean?
It is just that I had this feeling
A temporary visitor who can walk on the ceiling
I didn't care about anyone else it seems
I wasn't a part of any teams
Then I fell in love with myself so much
That all I wanted to do is reach out and touch
I became a massage therapist and a healer
An alien who suddenly became a feeler
With strangers I would instantly connect
Only to learn of my impact and how I affect
I got addicted to playing this new game
Pretending I am an angel in God's name
Hi, how are you? I would ask
I know you are wearing a mask
I can see who you really are
I can see you hiding behind your scar
Would you like me to help you?
Would you like an angel point of view?
Would you like to learn to fly?
And clam your greatness in the sky?
So I dressed up in a business suit
And from an airplane jumped off in pursuit
For a flying angel position I applied
After 60 seconds of free fall, I realized I was denied
Being an alien or an angel is a very safe way to be
An alien in a relationship is emotionally pain free
Being an angel allows me at any time to flee
From what I truly want, a two way intimacy
Why would I run away from a two way intimacy?
Am I afraid of someone really being into me?
Why would I have such hard time receiving?
What is it that I avoid believing?
I attract many who are curious about the alien in me
They are fascinated by how different I may seem to be
I attract many who like to be touched by the angel in me
They love to be elevated to their next degree
Among all I wonder who sees my humanity
Or should I say my insanity
Maybe I haven't shown much of my vulnerability
My other feelings beyond my tranquility
Feelings of desire and longing to be seen
As just a normal human being
One that does ordinary simple things
Like go on dates or maybe sings
Having a great sushi dinner and drink
Just for fun without having to think
Having passionate sex
Without making it complex
Saying “I love you” without having to create a meaning
Enjoying the moment without intervening
Sharing my fears and passions without being misjudged
Without any expectations that makes me feel smudged
Knowing that all we have is this moment to share
A moment of being one and a pair
Receiving, giving, and tears
Of unexpressed love accumulated over the years
Touch me, kiss me, and hold my hand
Here before you naked I stand
No shame, no fear, who I am I proclaim
I am here to play the human game
Can you see my body as the temple that I am?
Can you see the beauty of my gem?
Can you cherish and love my desire?
Would you let me touch you with my fire?
Do you believe in me and my possibility?
Can you see my nobility and ability?
Would you like to witness my creations?
That might be above borders or nations?
Would you stand by my side as my mirror?
Just to help me always be clearer
To pave my path of love and creation
Together with you be in celebration
After all I only want to play
And that is with you I pray
Because I have been in love with you for so long
I can't wait to meet you and finely belong
Let my heart bit like a gong
As together we sing our song
Love
Steven
