March 2006
I started this month being snappy at people, short, and stressed. Since I live a very comfortable and stress free lifestyle I was surprised with how stressed I actually was. My vision was to stick to my truth.
It is true that this month I was busy creating a number of events like public speaking engagements, the retreat for women, the guys one day adventure, the non-traditional marketing seminar, the weekly mastermind group, and hosting my visiting family. This is no different than other months that I was creating many other events.
In between working and planning, I would find myself with endless mind conversations with "what if?" scenarios like:
- What if people don't show up to an event I am planning?
- What if customers don't like my prepared presentation?
- How would I explain to the people involved in creating an event that we had to reschedule due to low registration numbers?
When I took a break, exhausted from such endless mind conversations, all I wanted to do was to hide, to stop all of my activities, to play safe, small, and not expose myself anymore.
Can you see that all of these conversations are all about looking good? I am so concerned about not looking good that I am willing at times to stop my life and to stop being in action, in order to save myself from a possible embarrassment.
I realized that I am so invested in looking good that I feel that so much is at stake, and if I "fail", my whole life would be over.
In the past, despite of my endless mind conversations, the events that I produced turned out successful. In fact, I still get emails from time to time about success stories resulting from an event I produced. The other day I got a thank you email from a friend who met his future wife at one of my events.
After about a week of experiencing daily stressing self-conversations, I received an email from my friend Ann Albers, who is writing a book about "Standing in the Light”. I immediately ignited, remembering who I am, why I am here, and saw clearly that I have been focusing on the outside wrapping; the package instead of on the content of who I AM.
Since then, I have been choosing daily to stand in the Light, letting go of my strong ego need to look good, and I became completely detached from the expectations for results that I was holding on to.
Standing in the light has become my daily mantra as I move forward with speed and velocity.
My challenge to you:
I would like to invite you to get into inquiry and ask yourself:
- How invested are you into looking good?
- What are some examples of things you do to look good?
- What is it costing you?
- How much is it stopping you from creating the things you really like?
- What are you going to do differently?
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