June 2005
Enjoying the gifts of inner harmony in my life, I have been in a space of bliss for some time now, and this June I began to get bored, meaning I am boring myself. I had gotten used to having fun, enjoying everyday, and experiencing so much love, and then there is this conversation in my head, "I have already done that, so now what?" It started as a little irritation of boredom, and grew into restlessness of wanting something more.
I began an inquiry into what more there is to have. I thought to myself, "I have everything one could ever imagine." That thought alone steered an annoyance of arrogance. An arrogance that I know all there is to know and I am happy with that, and I want to stay exactly where I am and enjoy it, but couldn't anymore.
From past lessons I already learned that when I feel so arrogant of knowing it all, I am hiding my truth which is always some kind of fear. So what am I afraid of?
- I am afraid to fly high with my business, flying too high...
- I am afraid of letting go of everything as I know it to make room for new things to come
- I am afraid of more love, as I am already experiencing it to such great degrees
- I am afraid of losing myself in love and not knowing who I am anymore
- I am afraid to sing my song
- I am afraid of expressing the power of my love, so I am channeling this energy to fuel my fears instead
- I am afraid of change. I got so comfortable creating the dream life, can I let it go now?
I was surprised to discover all of these fears that I thought I had already dealt with in the past. In further inquiring about my fears, I realized that these insecurities are due to the fact that I am not fully committed to myself in living love. I have been engaged to myself for many years, kind of a conditional relationship where I still get to hold back, judge, and try to control my expression and relationship.
I decided to marry myself. That's right, you heard correctly. I am committing to myself with marriage vows as my new way of life.
Here are my marriage vows:
- Will you love, respect and honor yourself throughout your years? I DO
- Do you promise to love and cherish yourself, in sickness and in health, for richer for poorer, for better for worse, and forsaking all others, for so long as you shall live? I DO
- Do you promise in the presence of your friends and family that you will at all times and in all circumstances, conduct yourselves as being love? I DO
- Do you pledge to love yourself and throughout your years to be honest, faithful, and kind to yourself. I DO
- Do you pledge to give to yourself the same happiness you give others, to react to yourself as only you can, and to respect yourself for who you are, not who you want yourself to be? I DO
- With all my heart I take myself to be in harmony. I will love myself through the good and the bad, through the joy and the sorrow. I will try to be understanding, and to trust in myself completely. I will make love a part of me and in turn, become a part of love. Together we will face all of life's experiences and share one another's dreams and goals. We will be equal partners in an open, honest relationship throughout the years.
- It is my intention to be my own best friend, to respect and support myself, to be patient with myself, to work together with my heart and soul to achieve those things that are important to me, to accept myself unconditionally, and to share life with myself throughout the years.
- I pledge to myself with all my heart to being love, and support myself in all ways, to my utmost capabilities, for the rest of my life.
- I intend to be fully self-expressed, with clear intention, with focus, with desire, with appreciation to all that there is and to always be playful with my reality as it is only my illusions of love.
Have you ever considered marrying yourself? Here are some questions for you to look at:
- Are you ready to have your wedding ceremony with yourself, or are you pleased to just remain engaged?
- What do you want to get out of your relationship with yourself?
- You do want pre-nuptials? Are there any conditions to your sacred union?
- I invite you to examine your conditions
- Are you happy in your marriage?
- Do you accept love from the reflection of yourself?
- Do you love your perfect limitations?
- Do you love who you are in relation to yourself?
- Are you ready to deepen and recommit to who you are?
- What is your wish list of your perfect mate?
- What's missing?
- Are you ready to choose loving yourself vs. falling in love?
- Are you ready to take some dancing lessons with the reality of your life? Being in the flow without resisting?
Cosmic marriage is now, announce, declare, and commit.
Good Luck!
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