July 2004
The month of June was a quiet month for me. I found myself avoiding the summer heat, and coming to life after midnight into the early morning hours. I wasn't communicating much with the world, and I found comfort in staying in, meditating, sleeping a lot, and loving myself.
I was then tested to see how I would handle my life when having feelings of illusions surrounding feeling separate and lonely, without the support of friends or much passion for anything, and feeling that I don't have a purpose nor a reason to be here.
I found that even when the world seemed to fall apart and I couldn't find anything to fill it with, I was still able to find my heart and be in love with life. Once I found my heart, darkness turned into light, despair turned into hope, and fear turned into excitement. The challenges are still here and the biggest one is to love them.
Such is life!
Love
Steven Ringelstein
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